Sunday, February 19, 2012

Team Carm at an End?

VEE:

With the reappearance of DS, I guess the blog has regained the OP half of OPCarm. This does not mean that I will stop trying to totally Carmelize the blog though!! :D


St Teresa of Avila said that meditating on the Passion often will benefit you greatly and she's right of course. There is nothing I can't come to understand in my life that is not learned from reflecting on Christ's Passion. He has forgiven me first and in that I am able to learn to forgive others. Did Jesus suffer through His Passion alone? No, and we do not get to heaven alone either. In any vocation in life we are called to know, love and serve God, and to help others to do the same (I stole that line from Mother Angelica.) In marriage the goal is to help each other get to heaven and the children as well, not to just get married and be alone together in some love nest isolated from the world at large. In religious life the goal is to not just become a priest, brother or sister. All things are done for the greater glory of God (AMDG :D ) and to help others get to heaven as well.

The same is true for friendships and that does not exclude them from trials and tribulations. The trials will come in any vocation because any vocation is the way of the cross.



In my role as a daughter I am now carrying the cross of my mom having cancer that is in her spine, her lungs and who knows where else. The news is fairly recent and further testing is being done. I have to deal with my mom as she comes to terms with that and her new physical limitations as her bones are so fragile she can't lift more than ten pounds, etc., etc. It has come to that stage in my life where in some ways the child now becomes the parent to care for the parent who has become more like a child. I struggle to be a good daughter and a good friend. Basically the only person I can't upset and get rid of, even if I try, is St Therese who helps me to learn to bear wrongs patiently and loving since she puts up with my crap all the time. Im a terrible student!!

Friday, February 17, 2012

Apologies and New Beginnings



"[Jesus] breathed on them and said to them, 'Receive the Holy Spirit. Whose sins you forgive are forgiven them, and whose sins you retain are retained." (John 20:22–23).

DS: Jesus said these words to His apostles just days after His Resurrection, thus giving the great gift and power to his priests to forgive men's sins in the Holy Sacrament of Confession. It is necessary to understand that it is not the priests who are doing the actual forgiving, but that they are mere instruments in the hands of Christ who does all the forgiving...

So, if it is Jesus who is reaching out to sinners in the confessional, why do a few Catholics feel it is not necessary? Instead, many echo the words of our protestant brothers and say, "Why should I confess my sins to a man? I go directly to God!" Well bro, that's not the way Jesus set it up! He would not have breathed the Holy Spirit on his apostles and given them this beautiful gift to forgive mens sins in the first place if all men had to do is "go directly to God." In all actuality, we humans do go "directly" to God in the confessional, in a much more powerful way than if we were kneeling at home confessing to God on our own.

In a few days time, it will be Lent...and Lent is the Church's perpetual call for all to end their sinful ways and embrace the love, mercy and forgiveness of the Lord. This is a common theme in our lives because as we all know, when Jesus died on the Cross, He gave us the hope of salvation, but he did not take away our ability to sin. Jesus didn't die on that cross to make us mere robots. He did not remove our free will. And because of our fallen human nature, Jesus ensured we would always have access to his mercy and forgiveness in the Sacrament He alone created by the spilling of His own precious blood...

There is just one thing we forget...

When Jesus forgave sins, he made sure to say, "Go and sin no more..." So Confession is not some magic trick that you go to to wash away your sins, keep on sinnin' and go back to for forgiveness. That is not how it works. It is there because sin is here. And there is a necessity and will be a necessity for reconciliation until the day we die. But we must strive to be better, and with the graces poured out to us in Confession, we can overcome sin...

Confession is good for the soul. Confession is a hard thing to do sometimes, and it can be a humbling experience presenting your sins to Jesus through a priest. Some of the more shameful sins you are tempted to keep hidden, but the Lord knows all, so why hide them? You also receive words of wisdom and advice and counsel from the priest in confession, who has probably heard every sin in the book...

In the spirit of reconciliation, I wish to make a formal apology to Vee. A few months ago, Vee's mother was diagnosed with an inoperable tumor at the base of her spine. It is metastatic....cancer. Ever since then, I've been really hard on Vee, because I myself have experienced the suffering (and death) of my mother...and I started to give Vee attitude because I felt like she was not responding like she should. So many people deal with suffering in their own way, and they have ways to survive it. I had no right to impose what my own feelings are on the subject and direct my own emotions in a lousy, attacking, biting attitude at Vee. I am very ashamed of this. Instead of consolation, I offered desolation. Instead of comfort, I handed out barbs. Vee, please accept my apology. You are my best friend and I would never want anything to destroy this precious gift of friendship God has so bestowed on me.

I want to begin anew. For Lent this year, I am going to keep away from my usual internet haunts. What I wish and hope to do is wake up this sleeping blog and keep it alive with posts about Faith, Hope, Charity, Suffering, LOVE and experiences with our Almighty God.


(...not to mention experiences with another gift from God: beer! This blog was meant to also offer our reviews on various beers we run into in our daily lives... lol....hopefully, we will not disappoint!)